I Have Been Cheating You!!!! Urgh!

 

As I sit here at my dining room table, the time is 2:13 am and I am finishing up some school work, it hit me! I haven’t written an article on this site from my heart in a very long time. For the most part I have been posting things that I think are useful, such as news clips, movies, and tips that I run across on the internet.
That is a direct result of being busy with school, single parenting and job hunting. I would like to say that I am sorry for cheating you out of the soul meals that I promised to deliver.
Although I am not working (outside the home) I am still a full time student, a single parent and a loving partner. I have been dedicating my parts of my life to job hunting lately. Honestly, I have so many skills, talents, education and interests that I have acquired over the years that it’s quite frightening to think that I would box all of that up in one job. I have been self-employed ALL of my adult working life. I took a snippet of that life to go to school and explore new horizons and you know what I found? I REALLY like working for myself. Sure it would be nice to take a break for a change and get a regular 9-5 and come home knowing my check is sure. Yes, I got burned out depending on clients and working undefined hours just to make ends meet sometimes. But as I continue to see the direction the traditional work force is going, when I hear my institutionally employed friends complaining about how unhappy they are, but can’t quite put their finger on the reason why. I can’t help but wonder if it is spiritually damaging to work for others when you have sooo much more to give.
I am getting my Ed.D in Adult Learning and Higher Education. I can not get an interview in this economy to beat the band. As I am learning to put together programs, create curriculums, do masterful presentations and perfect my speaking and presentation skills, I am being taken back to a time when I was writing massive amounts of information that turned into books (“25 Thoughts About Your Destiny”). I am taken back to the time when I was working under Mr. Dudley and he would tell us how to grow our salons, sell enough product to pay the bills and how to go out and get as many clients as you want. He drilled it in our heads that, “times are not slow, I’m slow, but I’m not gone stay slow”! I began to feel powerful again. Then I asked myself why am I waiting on a job??? I told myself to get busy finish those 3 books you have been dragging your feet on. Start back letting everyone know that you coach women in areas of starting their own business, successful relationships, and decision making.
I reached my magic number of 5 coaching clients (3 free for learning and 2 paying). When I finally received pay for the first time for coaching it didn’t even dawn on me that I had hit a milestone. I was so busy looking outside myself for a job that I didn’t even recognize that I had finally created the “job” I always wanted through helping others. It took me soooo long to get those customers, because I have been doing it sporadically in between papers, projects and kids. I had even forgotten about my research topic for a moment…see here: http://candi-letstalk.blogspot.com/2009/03/want-free-life-coaching-get-it-now.html
It is amazing how easy it is to get side tracked from your goals when you get caught up in the getting game. Will I accept a job if it is offered to me? I don’t know. If you had asked me that question just 2 days ago I would have said a resounding YES!!! But I think God tapped me on the shoulder just to remind me of what I already have. I’m going to put it to use and I challenge you to do the same. I have coached in the areas of relationships, self-employment, and transition/decision issues. Of course I have all of this stuff listed in the site, but as I said I lost sight. I even found my cards as I had them stuffed in my purse. I ran into someone and needed to give her my number and pulled out the card like it was nothing. She looked at me as if she knew I had no clue as to the treasure I was sitting on and seemed a bit disgusted that I had failed to tell her that I was a life coach, adult educator and author. Needless to say I was ashamed, but I am back to my self and I will continue to stay focused and use ALL of the gifts God has given me.
I invite you to journey with me back to our original souls and listen to what they are saying. Our souls do not cry out for more money, more things or more attention. However, our souls cry out for the opportunity to soar, to give of ourselves through our talents and gifts and to not be consumed with building only others empires, but building our own.
Touch your soul today.
Love,
Candi/Single Mama Diva